I am behind....on posting :)

Ahhhh!!!! I was doing so well with posting or I at least felt like I was and then the weekend came and it went to hell.

Honesty check right here...I missed Thursday and Friday's workouts last week. I got stuck on a 2 hour business call for work and by the time I got off it was time to go to bed. Friday...well errands and a nap got in the way. However, I didn't completely skip these workouts. I would have in the past, but this time is different.

Saturday morning I got up and pressed PLAY and did what was originally Day 4- Pilates. I am not the biggest fan of Pilates, but I gave it my all. I was feeling pretty good so I figured why not also try and tackle Day 5- Cardio?? Seemed like a no brainer....that was until a picture frame dropped to the floor and shattered glass everywhere. Needless to say, the PAUSE button was pushed.

I didn't UN-PAUSE Cardio until last night. Not my ideal plan, but things happen and I told myself that I am already doing better than previous rounds I have attempted.

Tonight was just as difficult as I was exhausted from work and I didn't get home until almost 8pm. However, I knew that I would just be disappointed in myself if I didn't press PLAY. So I did....and I tackled Dirty 30. I have a feeling I will be sore again tomorrow.

I didn't realize how much I would enjoy these workouts, but tonight as I was showering and getting ready for bed, I started noticing definition in my arms, abs and legs. Definition I have never had before, and what makes it even better is that it was me...my hard work...my 30 minutes...to become a better me.

I cannot wait to see my true final results after the 21 days. I have a feeling this may be the first year I am going to rock a bikini and feel so confident in it :)

Day 4

Day 4 didn't happen on the usual schedule, but instead of skipping it completely I just rescheduled it for Saturday morning. I was all excited and ready to work out Thursday night, but I received a work call from someone I told to call me and I promised I would help. What I thought would be maybe 3-45 minutes turned into almost 2 hours. I wasn't angry, but a bit disappointed. It was 9:30 by the time I was off the phone and if I worked out at that time, it would be difficult for me to fall asleep.

So I worked out yesterday morning. It was Pilates. Not my favorite. I think Pilates is my least favorite because it isn't a ton of moving around all at once. Don't get me wrong...it is still a great workout, but definitely different.

Today I need to tackle the rest of Cardio Day and Dirty 30. Should be a good time. I was rescheduling cardio for yesterday after Pilates (should have happened Friday), but I was about 2 minutes into it when a picture frame dropped and broke. I felt like that was a sign. I meant to finish last night, but by the time the yard work was completed, dinner was made etc. it was late. However, I woke up this morning and boy am I sore!!! Need to go stretch the body out and tackle the day.

Happy Mother's Day to all the mothers out there!!!!

Over the first small hurdle...Day 3

Holy crap!!!! I finally broke my hangup. Wednesday came and I conquered! This is usually where I give up and give in because I am already so exhausted from the week, but after a week like this I knew I had to push through and I did!!!! After working out, I had to make 5 batches of Rice Krispy treats for today so I didn't make it to this post until this evening.

So I know I am not far in my journey yet and I am still working on consistency, but this round feels so much different...in a good way. I am loving the way I feel....even if I am a bit sore I am going to keep pushing through and get through all 21 days!!!



(Ok....after many attempts my video isn't loading!!!! I will try again tomorrow.)

I made it!!!!....to Day 2.

You're supposed to celebrate the little victories right? I made it to Day 2!!!

I'm not sure what is entirely different from working out this time vs. all the other million times I tried. I think part of me was trying to prove something to myself and others, which ultimately backfired...essentially I was doing it for the wrong reasons. I know....how could working out for the wrong reasons be a bad thing? Well for one when I was working out in the past, I wasn't really pushing hard enough. I didn't really have a drive or the right drive. I was just like a shell.....casing on the outside but hollow on the inside. This time, I feel like I am truly doing this for me and no one else. I really want to build muscle to where my arms are more defined and my legs can run a half marathon properly. I want to have abs and not suck in my stomach all the time because I am worried about what others think (something I am overcoming too).

Surprisingly enough, it has taken me almost 30 years to realize this, but I am finally starting to become more comfortable with myself because I actually feel good about myself. It feels good to be eating healthier and knowing that I am making a better future for me. My goal is get into great shape....not by the number on the scale...but to really feel 100% happy with the work I have put in. To me, the scale is the last thing on my list. It doesn't define me. If I gain 10lbs well then so be it, but it won't be 10 pounds of fat...it's going to be muscle. I am in this for the long haul, and this time I am not and will not give up. No more excuses!

With that said, Day 2 was another good day. Upper Fix definitely had my arms and abs burning so I am sure I will be sore again tomorrow, but I am really enjoying these workouts more so than I have in the past. Until Day 3!!!

How many times can I fall off the horse...?

How many times can a person fall off the horse? For me, I think I am at 1036. Ok...maybe not, but I have fallen A LOT.....but I keep getting back up. And so here I am again...Day 1.

Day 1 always feels amazing. You are just starting so there is no way to fail. It's after Day 1 where it can fall apart. I am trying something a little different. Every day I am going to take a video of myself...before...after or both just to hold myself accountable and track how I am feelings etc. I am going to post it here vs. Facebook for right now.

This round is for me. I don't mind if others are watching or tuning in, but I have to focus on me first and get this down. I want to turn this into an awesome habit where every morning I am excited to get up, workout and attack the day. I know by doing this my days can be so much better, but if I keep dropping the ball it is going to take longer. I can envision how life would be like in a few months....being in shape, feeling great, and having more time and energy due to these small changes I want to make right now.

So Day 1 is done. I was definitely sweating, which was a really nice feeling. I don't feel like I am always sweating buckets, which means I am not pushing it enough. However, I think tonight since I am in a better mindset, I wanted to really push as hard as possible. I won't die from working out 30 minutes. It may cause some sore muscles, but it just reaffirms that I am alive!

A little video right before working out.

Let's Rewind a Bit Shall We?

A month and a half has already passed us by in 2016, and I have to just step back for a second and look at where I was a year ago. A lot can happen in a year...

My "March Mental Day."
Catching up on the mags.

Around this same time last year, my job was pretty much on the line. There were certain requirements that had to be met- Employee Sales Program was one of them. I had only a two months before I would hit my 1 year mark in my current position before I would be on my 60 day notice and out the door. I was frustrated, angry, annoyed....you name it, I felt it. I liked my job, and I didn't want to lose it, but I was to the point where I felt like I was hopeless. I felt the pressure from my co-workers, my boss....everyone.

Come March I was pretty much in the same spot as before to the point where my husband said I should just take a day off work. I am not one to just take a day off just because...that's how messed up my mentality was at that point. However, I did it...I took the day off. I wallowed in bed for the first half of the day pitying myself, but around noon I told myself to knock it off and get up. I got dressed, went for a jog since it was so warm outside, and then sat and read three magazines that I forgot I even received. In the end, it was a great day. Oh yes....I forgot...I also baked a cake.

Little did I know that day would be a turning point for me. At the time, I didn't realize it, but from that day forward I started putting myself first a little more instead of shoving me to the back of the line and in a corner.

First lunch meal prep

Finished the Cherry
Blossom 10 Mile Run-
No TRAINING. What
Was I thinking? Oh yeah...
I wasn't.

I started by little things such as trying meal prepping our lunches and working out. Any one who knows me knows that I have a hard time staying consistent. I go for something for awhile and then I eventually stop. For example...I have run 4 half marathons. For each one, I would start training, but by month two or so my excuses started racking up and then the training would stop. I would still run the race, but the sad thing is that I would brag about how I finished and say "I didn't even train for it properly." Who does that? How is that a good thing? I didn't train properly...I could have injured myself!!!

July was probably the best major turning point of 2015 for me. I was provided with an opportunity. It took a little convincing of my husband because I wanted his support in what I wanted to do, and eventually he got on board. So what was the opportunity? To become a coach through Beachbody.

Now, now now....we all have our opinions on everything. Some people may not like it, others like it. Whatever the case may be, this has been a decision I made and I feel like it was one of the best.

Starting my workouts and trying
to hold myself more accountable.

Why? Well there are 2 Why's. Why did I decide to do it? Why Beachbody?

1) My Why- To be honest, my original why was truly just to hold myself more accountable and to get back into fitness. That was the first part of my reason. My second part is because I wanted to prove people wrong. I know...it sounds horrible, but it's true. Maybe it was more in my head than what I truly saw, but I was tired. Tired of not standing up for myself. Tired of not having my own opinions. Tired of being put down. So part of it was to prove others they were wrong about me. The other part is I wanted this for me.

2) Why Beachbody?- Yes there are a TON of ways out there to get fit and healthy, but I needed a little guidance. I wanted something that would work and provide long term changes and become a lifestyle, not just a short term fix. BB provides me with the ground work...workouts that make me work for what I want (6 pack abs...never in my life have I had these), a better understanding of healthy foods, and the community and support to help me feel motivated and be with me every step of the way. The bonus? I also get to help others.

So MY WHY was to prove people wrong....that was when I started back in July. NOW- I could care less on proving people wrong. I did this for me...worrying about what others think of me is not going to get me closer to a healthier, happier me. My own hard work and determination is going to get me there.

I was short changing myself. I did that for almost 30 years. Don't do that to yourself. Whatever your passion is, whatever you truly want in life....BELIEVE IN YOURSELF and GO FOR IT! It will be your best decision, and you'll never look back and wonder WHAT IF?

Laziness Got Me Again.

I feel like I am the queen of excuses. I can always talk myself out of something, and for what? I would say 99% of the time it's really just due to plain laziness.

Had to celebrate finishing Pilates!!!

Last week I stated that I wanted to use this space to hold myself more accountable. Well...I am behind again, but I am moving on. 

My goal is to become more fit and healthy and I started working out again last week to work towards that goal. Well, life got in the way (excuse) and I missed a few days. I am not quitting and I am not starting over. I am continuing on and going to do the best I can. Accountability for working out has always been hard because I haven't really had to work at it in the past. Well, I am now older and I want to make sure my body can keep up with the plans I have in mind for the next 70 or so years :)

This weekend was the perfect opportunity to get back on the horse so to speak in that I knew I would be cooped up in the house due to the blizzard that was coming. Let me set one thing straight. I loved knowing a blizzard was coming and I have loved every minute of it. Not every day that you get 30" of snow!!!!! Ok...so being stuck inside or near the house for at least 2 days I thought I should definitely be working out at least once if not twice a day. What did I do Saturday? Oh yeah....took a 3 hour nap...and didn't work out.

Delicious, evil mini pies (blueberry,
raspberry and peach)

Today I woke up early (7:30) and I was in my poor me mood for whatever reason. I told myself I had until 10am to do whatever I wanted and when 10am rolled around I had to do a workout I missed from last week. Happy to say I did it! It was Pilates. One I have not been fond of in the past- likely because I need to work on my form still. Regardless, it felt fantastic.

This evening, I made one of our Blue Apron meals, and then I had a craving. I found some mini fruit pies in the freezer that I was able to toss in the oven (mistake #1). There are 6 little pies...I ate 3 (mistake #2). About an hour or so later I decided I needed to actually do a second workout. Not because of the pies, but just to get a little more on track. So what do I do? I grab another mini pie (Mistake #4) as I pop on my workout video. Let's just say that was a really stupid idea. I also wasn't able to finish it because my stomach was so angry at me.

What's left of mini pie #4

It truly is amazing how our bodies work. I was so blinded by every thing because I just wasn't paying attention and worse, my body didn't give me the obvious signs I was doing something wrong. I could eat out every day, and really wouldn't see weight gain. Now I know that may be a dream for some, but think of what may have been going on inside that I wasn't aware of then? Not that I did eat out every day, but I have had some bad weeks at times. The point is, there is so much out there that is "convenient" and yet is almost like a poison. I still don't know everything about food in regards to what is best and how to fuel myself 100% properly, but I am learning. 

Kicking Day 4- Leg Day
to the curb

Moving forward, my goal with this blog is not only track my fitness goals and hold myself accountable as stated before, but to also pinpoint different areas that can not only help me, but others as well. We live in a busy society and we can all use a little help. Let's help ourselves first.


I may hold some free groups to help us all get on a better track and really help ourselves. Would you be interested? Comment below. 

Until the next post...