I am behind....on posting :)

Ahhhh!!!! I was doing so well with posting or I at least felt like I was and then the weekend came and it went to hell.

Honesty check right here...I missed Thursday and Friday's workouts last week. I got stuck on a 2 hour business call for work and by the time I got off it was time to go to bed. Friday...well errands and a nap got in the way. However, I didn't completely skip these workouts. I would have in the past, but this time is different.

Saturday morning I got up and pressed PLAY and did what was originally Day 4- Pilates. I am not the biggest fan of Pilates, but I gave it my all. I was feeling pretty good so I figured why not also try and tackle Day 5- Cardio?? Seemed like a no brainer....that was until a picture frame dropped to the floor and shattered glass everywhere. Needless to say, the PAUSE button was pushed.

I didn't UN-PAUSE Cardio until last night. Not my ideal plan, but things happen and I told myself that I am already doing better than previous rounds I have attempted.

Tonight was just as difficult as I was exhausted from work and I didn't get home until almost 8pm. However, I knew that I would just be disappointed in myself if I didn't press PLAY. So I did....and I tackled Dirty 30. I have a feeling I will be sore again tomorrow.

I didn't realize how much I would enjoy these workouts, but tonight as I was showering and getting ready for bed, I started noticing definition in my arms, abs and legs. Definition I have never had before, and what makes it even better is that it was me...my hard work...my 30 minutes...to become a better me.

I cannot wait to see my true final results after the 21 days. I have a feeling this may be the first year I am going to rock a bikini and feel so confident in it :)

Day 4

Day 4 didn't happen on the usual schedule, but instead of skipping it completely I just rescheduled it for Saturday morning. I was all excited and ready to work out Thursday night, but I received a work call from someone I told to call me and I promised I would help. What I thought would be maybe 3-45 minutes turned into almost 2 hours. I wasn't angry, but a bit disappointed. It was 9:30 by the time I was off the phone and if I worked out at that time, it would be difficult for me to fall asleep.

So I worked out yesterday morning. It was Pilates. Not my favorite. I think Pilates is my least favorite because it isn't a ton of moving around all at once. Don't get me wrong...it is still a great workout, but definitely different.

Today I need to tackle the rest of Cardio Day and Dirty 30. Should be a good time. I was rescheduling cardio for yesterday after Pilates (should have happened Friday), but I was about 2 minutes into it when a picture frame dropped and broke. I felt like that was a sign. I meant to finish last night, but by the time the yard work was completed, dinner was made etc. it was late. However, I woke up this morning and boy am I sore!!! Need to go stretch the body out and tackle the day.

Happy Mother's Day to all the mothers out there!!!!

Over the first small hurdle...Day 3

Holy crap!!!! I finally broke my hangup. Wednesday came and I conquered! This is usually where I give up and give in because I am already so exhausted from the week, but after a week like this I knew I had to push through and I did!!!! After working out, I had to make 5 batches of Rice Krispy treats for today so I didn't make it to this post until this evening.

So I know I am not far in my journey yet and I am still working on consistency, but this round feels so much different...in a good way. I am loving the way I feel....even if I am a bit sore I am going to keep pushing through and get through all 21 days!!!



(Ok....after many attempts my video isn't loading!!!! I will try again tomorrow.)

I made it!!!!....to Day 2.

You're supposed to celebrate the little victories right? I made it to Day 2!!!

I'm not sure what is entirely different from working out this time vs. all the other million times I tried. I think part of me was trying to prove something to myself and others, which ultimately backfired...essentially I was doing it for the wrong reasons. I know....how could working out for the wrong reasons be a bad thing? Well for one when I was working out in the past, I wasn't really pushing hard enough. I didn't really have a drive or the right drive. I was just like a shell.....casing on the outside but hollow on the inside. This time, I feel like I am truly doing this for me and no one else. I really want to build muscle to where my arms are more defined and my legs can run a half marathon properly. I want to have abs and not suck in my stomach all the time because I am worried about what others think (something I am overcoming too).

Surprisingly enough, it has taken me almost 30 years to realize this, but I am finally starting to become more comfortable with myself because I actually feel good about myself. It feels good to be eating healthier and knowing that I am making a better future for me. My goal is get into great shape....not by the number on the scale...but to really feel 100% happy with the work I have put in. To me, the scale is the last thing on my list. It doesn't define me. If I gain 10lbs well then so be it, but it won't be 10 pounds of fat...it's going to be muscle. I am in this for the long haul, and this time I am not and will not give up. No more excuses!

With that said, Day 2 was another good day. Upper Fix definitely had my arms and abs burning so I am sure I will be sore again tomorrow, but I am really enjoying these workouts more so than I have in the past. Until Day 3!!!

How many times can I fall off the horse...?

How many times can a person fall off the horse? For me, I think I am at 1036. Ok...maybe not, but I have fallen A LOT.....but I keep getting back up. And so here I am again...Day 1.

Day 1 always feels amazing. You are just starting so there is no way to fail. It's after Day 1 where it can fall apart. I am trying something a little different. Every day I am going to take a video of myself...before...after or both just to hold myself accountable and track how I am feelings etc. I am going to post it here vs. Facebook for right now.

This round is for me. I don't mind if others are watching or tuning in, but I have to focus on me first and get this down. I want to turn this into an awesome habit where every morning I am excited to get up, workout and attack the day. I know by doing this my days can be so much better, but if I keep dropping the ball it is going to take longer. I can envision how life would be like in a few months....being in shape, feeling great, and having more time and energy due to these small changes I want to make right now.

So Day 1 is done. I was definitely sweating, which was a really nice feeling. I don't feel like I am always sweating buckets, which means I am not pushing it enough. However, I think tonight since I am in a better mindset, I wanted to really push as hard as possible. I won't die from working out 30 minutes. It may cause some sore muscles, but it just reaffirms that I am alive!

A little video right before working out.